I cried a little today. Okay, I’m a baby. But I’m mad and I’m sad and I’m throwing myself a pity party.
I don’t even really like M… I liked the attention, I liked who I thought he was. But who he turned out to be, no I don’t like. So, why do I care if he is still interested in me or not? I shouldn’t but I do.
I went to work today knowing it would be weird/awkward/uncomfortable or all of the above. Well, he starts off the day asking “are you still mad at me?”
“I wouldn’t say I’m mad at you, I wasn’t really even mad on Friday, mad just isn’t the word.. however, now isn’t the time to talk about it.”
If he really cared, he wouldn’t have asked me that on Monday morning at work, through IM.
He ignored me most of the day and I did the same.
And it’s not about HIM, it’s about the fact that this ALWAYS happens to me. It makes me want to never give another guy a chance because it always ends up the same. And we were FRIENDS, I really did think he liked me at first because he knew me at least somewhat. But I was wrong, he didn’t like me, he was looking for a rebound. I knew it and thats why I didn’t really want to go out with him in the first place.
The worst part is that he is not worth my time, my thoughts, or my energy, yet here I am feeling shitty about myself. It just doesn’t seem right.
Can someone please teach me to have some thicker skin when it comes to dating!?!?