Lately, I’ve been consumed with thoughts of change. It all started innocently enough. Passing thoughts of changing my appereance or learning something new.
Dye your hair strawberry blonde. Get a tattoo. Pierce something.
It’s not unusual for me to think about change but lately the thoughts have been growing louder and more persistant.
Start running. Learn to make jewelry.
Figure out what you want to do with your life.
And I can’t seem to drown them out as hard as I try.
Take a big risk. Pack up your life and move across country. Do something that scares you. Just take a risk.
It’s not that these thoughts are bad to think about. But when they start screaming all at once, my chest gets tight and its hard to breathe.
Go back to school. Get a new job. Leave this one you don’t even like. What exactly are you doing?
I guess life has been pretty stagnant for awhile. I’m sort of stuck in a bubble of safety living at home, hanging out with my best friends from high school, all still living here in my hometown. Not having to really step outside my comfort zone for two years now. Just moving along.. going with the flow… standing still when I should be moving forward.
How about you start dating again? Take a chance with that.
Or maybe, move away even if everyone else is staying.
Update your resume. Send it out. Look in all different places. You’ll never leave without a reason.
And these thoughts, they just don’t stop. I can’t make them stop.
Hi, this is your quarter life crisis talking and I’m here to stay.