Hi bloggies, I’m back! and so is The Crazy. Oh who am I kidding, The Crazy never really leaves me, it just lays dormant for a little while. Anyways, I’ve been feeling a little nutty the last couple days. Nutty over a boy. Notice, I didn’t say smitten but nutty, as in I’m thinking so much, my brain might explode.
I’m not giving him a cute little name yet… I feel like it’s too soon for that. So, I met him online… oh, and he just so happens to have the same name as The Ex, which is actually a lot more annoying than I anticipated it being! The Ex’s name just holds so much weight to it, ya know? I say that name and I think of him. But when I talk about the new boy with my friends we just call him OK (because we met through OK Cupid lol) so that makes life slightly easier.
So the new boy, well, I feel like he is just very genuine. He is super sweet and nice, but a little on the shy side. The thing is that while the first date flowed really well and I had a good time, I didn’t know how much we sparked. Maybe I was thinking about it too much or maybe it’s the fact that he’s just so nice. However, I did want him to kiss me at the end, which he did not! (side note: end of date = awkwardness, unless you’ve already kissed earlier in the date)
So first date was on Thursday, second date was on Sunday. He came over to just hang out since I had the house to myself. We watched Beerfest (actually very funny movie) and then played a little Rock Band. We ended up being all cuddly during the movie and the night ended which a couple cute kisses. After he left, I found myself really happy but at the same time questioning things. Do we have enough in common? Is the chemistry enough? Is there spark?
I spent most of yesterday thinking about it. I can’t help but notice that this is what I do with nice guys. I look for reasons to run. If a guy’s into me, I get freaked out. If he acts uninterested or like a jerk, I’ll be dying to see him again. But really, when a nice guy likes me, it’s almost like I don’t know what to do with myself and I become really critical of the situation. I hate being like this.
The thing is that he contacts me just enough. Not overwhelming but he is consistent. He’s respectful. He thinks about me instead of just himself. He tries to plan cute dates for us.
And yet, is there a spark? I don’t know! Is that bad? Is what I assume a “spark” with the jerks just because its more difficult, more thrilling. Is it actually just a figment of my imagination because I’m having to work to get a guy to like me?
Tonight is our third date. I’m going to his house and he’s cooking us dinner (+ 5 cute points) I feel like tonight will be a big tell of whether something is really there or not. I know I sound crazy and that I should just take about 100 chill pills and calm the fuck down but I just get nervous about these kinds of things.
So, I was just curious bloggy buds, have you ever had chemistry develop slower? Have you ever been unsure in the beggining? Does it usually mean something is not there? Do you think I’m a whackadoo worrying like this? Ok, Go!