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LOST, LOST, LOST… Oh and an Update on WorkSpouse

I think it’s a bullet post kind of day… partially because I’m posting from work and partially because my head is filled with so many thoughts of LOST I can barely function. 🙂

  • Right now, I can hardly contain my excitement for the LOST finale tonight.  I really think it’s going to be amazing.  From what I’ve been hearing from interviews with the producers and castmates, there are two big shockers at the end and one will leave us wondering how the show will even go on! 
  • Also, any guesses for who the major death is going to be?  It’s supposedly going to be as sad as when Charlie died.  I don’t know if I’m prepared for this.  Last week, I kept having a nagging feeling that it would be Sawyer but I really don’t think they would do that with the whole love triangle going on.  Perhaps, Jin or Sun?  That would be so sad.  I guess we’ll see.  Make sure you have the Kleenex handy!
  • I have a mini work event in the middle of the day today which is also bringing me happiness.  I get a 90 min break plus free food.  Saweet.
  • The day after I wrote the post about WorkSpouse I decided to ask him what was going on with the crazy girl he is seeing.  WELL, they are basically in a relationship… apparently, he made her break up with her boyfriend a couple states away.  I don’t know if I was just emotional from rehashing the whole thing on here or if it’s because my Girl Time is coming but I lost it.  I was mad and upset and I basically told him that we are not friends anymore.  My exact words were: “I just can’t look at you the same anymore.  You treated me like every other jerk I talk to and thats not okay.  I want to still be good friends but we aren’t… and I blame you for that.”  I felt lied to and mistreated and I don’t want to be friends.  Maybe that is immature but I was a really great friend to him and I feel like he does not deserve my friendship anymore. 
  • To end this on a happier note, because I really am in a great mood despite the stupid boy drama, this weekend my seester graduates college!  I’ll be out of town for a few days and probably won’t be posting.  I get to see some of my family I don’t see often and I’m super excited.  I’m so proud of my sis and can’t wait until she uses her new degree in dental hygiene to benefit me with some free teeth whitening. 🙂


Filed under All Things Listy, Boys are Dumb, Cubicle Life, Life as a Couch Potato, My Crazy, single life

Life. Love. Bullshit.

All I have to say is TGIF people… TGI freakin F!

The Meantime Man I alluded to happened to be M.. ya know, the one I threw shoes at that one time? Well, Saturday night I went out for his birthday and watched him try to make out with our manager, you know – the one who makes guys hate Valentine’s Day. She was all over him and she knew we were hooking up too.

I have to admit that I was already over the situation with Meantime Man anyway. In fact, it was the perfect out for me. I didn’t have to feel bad because trying to kiss my manager right in front of me and my friends is disrespectful and embarassing and thank you because now I don’t feel bad for breaking things off.

Oh and I ended ud up making out with Work Spouse again… I really don’t know how I feel about that situation. Well, actually I do. I just can’t talk about it right now. It makes me nervous and happy and confused and… we’ll talk about that another day.

Tuesday. My friend broke the news that The Ex was coming to Beerfest (this event in Atlantic City that I was really looking forward to) with his g/f and they were getting there own room.

The Ex…

is coming to Beerfest…

with his girlfriend…

and they’re getting there own room.

I’m pretty sure those lines repeated over and over in my head as if a bad dream.


She doesn’t even speak freakin English!


He would love that though, he knows I cannot control my jealousy or tears and I bet he’d love the shit out of that situation.

So anyways, I texted him and he said he probably isn’t going… whew. And I confirmed that his spanish chiquita is now his GIRLFRIEND.

That is ridiculous.

I know I know, this is old news.

But it’s one of those things that even when you’ve prepared yourself for it, you really are not ready when it happens.

I had three mini meltdowns at my desk at work that day – damn The Ex and my lack of sleep and my freakin surplus of emotions.

I’m all better now.

Oh, and Sunday is my birthday – yay! 🙂

Oh and don’t even get me started on The Bachelor. All I have to say is, there is no excuse for breaking up with a girl on national television… even if you’re “following your heart” and you “don’t want to live with regrets.”

I don’t know about you guys but all I’m hearing is blahhh blahhh blahh I’m a dirty tramp.


Filed under Boys are Dumb, Cubicle Life, Dating Stories, Drunken Shenanigans, Relationships, single life, The Ex, This is my life

Some Resolutions & a Date

Well hello 2009, nice to see you.  Wasn’t it just about to be 2000 and everyone was freaking out about y2k and the world ending… where did the decade go?  Anywaysss..

I don’t like to jinx things but I do have a good feeling about 2009 and on New Years Eve right after the ball dropped they just happened to play “Walkin On Sunshine” which is my theme song at work heh.  I thought it was a pretty damn good sign.

I really don’t need it to be a new year to sit down and think of goals, in fact I’m all about the goals.  But this year in particular I find myself extremely excited about the new year and the possibilities.

My resolutions:

Kicking my toxic habit for good:  I’m done with the drama with The Ex… haven’t spoken to him in over two weeks now and have no desire to.  He is most certainly OUT in 09.  Yesterday, I started thinking about the mean things he has said to me, mean things he did to me.. and I got mad… really, really, mad.  And mad at myself too for letting him treat me poorly for so long.  I don’t even want to be friends with him right now.  The saga is over finally, I can feel it and it feels so good.

Move out… Living at home isn’t that bad but I’m ready to have freedom again, to stay out all night if I want and not have to worry about my Mom freaking out.  I don’t know where I want to move yet, Philly is an option but really it depends on the next goal as well:

Figure out my career direction… I’m still thinking about going back to school for school counseling.  I think about it a lot.  It would have been too rushed to try to get everything together before Jan 15th to go back Fall 09 but I’m looking at Fall 10.  I want to do some research.  I want to talk to a friend who is in a school counseling program and maybe even shadow a counselor for a day to help me make sure this is what I want to do.

Learn to make jewelry… This has been on the top of my things to do list for a couple years now.  It’s time to stop thinking it and find some classes and do it!  Eventually I’d love to have my own little Etsy shop but for this year I just want to start learning.

Lose Weight & Get in Shape:  I know its cliche but I want to lose at least 20lbs because that is how much I’ve put on the last couple years.  But I don’t want to just lose the weight, I really want to get in shape and just live healthier in general. 

Date my booty off.  It’s scary.. there’s the nervousness beforehand and the stress afterwards.  It can be fun and most of the time its frustrating but I want to get out there.  I don’t want to keep looking back on what could have been, what might have been, I just want to move forward.  I want to meet new people, maybe even meet someone nice who will treat me how I deserve.

So the whole dating thing kicked off tonight with me meeting the Surfer!  It was nice, we just did coffee.  It’s too early to tell if there is anything there.  By the time we really started feeling comfortable with each other it was time to leave so we’ll see if we go out again.  I don’t know how he felt about me… he was hard to read.  And just a hug at the end of the night.. he SAID he would call me tomorrow but we’ll see.  You never do know with boys. 

I think another resolution of mine should be to try to control the crazy.  Yea, it definitely should be.  We’ll see.. I’ll keep you posted of course. 🙂

Oh and on another boy note, WS has been coming on strong… I don’t know what to do but I’ll have to save that for another entry.

What are your resolutions/goals for 2 0 0 9?


Filed under Dating Stories, single life, Surfer, The Ex, This is my life

Boys on the Brain

My love life is often straight up comical… as in, most of my stories with guys involve them acting so ridiculous all you can do is laugh or else you’ll cry.  Anyways, I know a couple of you lovely freaders out there were wondering about the phone call CR and I were discussing so here is an update on that and all things boy in my life.

Surfer:  This is who I was talking to CR about and the one I was nervous to talk to on the phone.   We’ve now had two phone calls which were both two hours long – which in my world is a freakin marathon of a phone call.  I don’t like talking on the phone.. but I kinda do when it’s with him – I feel like we have a similar sense of humor and I just like the feeling I get about him.  The other day he kind of suggested us meeting up for a drink this weekend if I wasn’t busy but I actually do have a bunch of things going on this weekend so I told him another time soon.  If that day ever comes, I will be so freakin nervous but I really do want to meet him.  The truth of the matter is that… I kind of like him already and it freaks me out.  He’s actually suppose to call me later tonight… 🙂

DK:  I’m officially changing his name to Brooklyn because it just suits him better.  Anyways, I’ve also talked to him on the phone twice but I get a MUCH different feeling from him.  He’s more of a tough guy but he’s funny – almost in a mean way though.  He strikes me as a player.. someone I should stay away from, so of course it only makes me interested – I’m weird like that.  Anyways, last night when we were talking he threw it out there that he “doesn’t date girls with short hair.”  “But what if the love of your life has short hair?”  I asked.  “Well, then she’ll just have to grow her hair long.”  “That is ridiculous.”  This is just crazy to me, you are going to rule out dating any girl with short hair?  I think it’s stupid.. I think he lost a couple points there.. definitely on the fence about him.

Work Spouse: Him and his kinda sometimes girlfriend are on the rocks again right now so he has been hinting at us hanging out/going on a date.  Now, he really does have a big heart but he is way too insecure for me.  I could walk all over him and honestly, he’s too emotional… trust me people, I have enough emotion on my own.  I mean, I would have no problem hanging out as friends but not dating.  Although there was that one time I drunkenly made out with him but I try not to think about that.  Anyways, so the other day he texted me and asked if I wanted company at 12:30am on a Friday night.

Me:  “Well, you can’t come over now and it’s way too cold and I’m way too sleepy to get out of my bed so no sorry”

WS:  “Oh.. well I could keep you company in bed.. I know that sounds bad but I mean, we’ve cuddled before..”
“umm.. is it okay if I ask you to hang out or should I not?”

Me:  “It’s fine I just can’t tonight…”

WS:  “Okay… are you seeing anyone?”

Me:  “no.” (he knows this already)

WS:  “Did you used to have a thing for me?”

Whaaaaaaaa…. this is the problem right here.  How awkward is that?  Quite honestly, no I never had a thing for him but I didn’t want to be so blunt and hurt his feelings.  I decide to say this:

Me:  “Um.. are you drunk right now?”

WS:   “No… why?”

Me:  “Because you’re acting really weird.”

WS:  “Sorry.”

-end convo-

And I like to just pretend this never happened. 

M:  Even after throwing shows at him, he still randomly asks me to hang out. 

“Want to come over and watch a movie?”  (which lets be honest really translates to: Do you want to come over and make out and maybe if I’m really lucky you will be horny and finally want to have sex with me? no really, that’s at least what it means when he says it, I’m pretty sure)

“I’m already going shopping with my friend… you snooze you lose.”

I think he enjoyed that response as he repeatedly used the saying “you snooze, you lose” all day.

The Ex:  There’s a party this Saturday and there’s a really good chance The Ex will be there.  In my sober mind, I would love to just hang out as friends and not hook up.  In my vodka mind, I can make no such promises.  Sigh.

Too much boy drama, not enough making out – that’s what I think about the situation. 😉


Filed under Boys are Dumb, Dating Stories, Let's talk about sex baybee, Relationships, single life, Surfer, This is my life, Why I shouldn't drink

My Life in Snippets

Another typical convo with CR.. in case you forgot, on occasion she likes to call me on my shit:

Me: “So this guy from the online site is suppose to call me tonight and I’m so nervous.  You know me, I’m not really a phone person!  It take so much energy.  Besides, I’m not a talker… I’m more of a listener…”

CR: haaaaaaaaaaaahahhaha”

Me: “What!?  I’m.. a listener..”

CR: “Okk LMO.. your not a talker.. whatever you say…”

Me:  “I don’t talk that much.. I mean…”

CR: “K”

Me: “Fine! Maybe with my best friends I talk a lot but not with strangers..”

CR: “Alright.. I guess I’ll give you that.”

*     *     *     *     *

Driving home from my friend, Banana’s house this weekend.  I’m in the middle lane on the turnpike, minding my own business.  I see a cop creeping around so I make sure not to go too fast… next thing I know I see the lights go on and I’m being pulled over.  What the fuck.

“License, registration and insurance ‘mam.”  I was already getting my things together.  “You’re not allowed to talk on your cell phone while driving anymore ‘mam.”  Yes, he kept calling me ‘mam.. I kind of hated it.

“Whaaaa? Yes, yes I know that… but I wasn’t on the phone!”

“I saw you with your hand to your ear…”  Apparently, driving with your elbow resting on the window and hand against your cheek is now breaking the law?

“Maybe I was playing with my hair!  I swear to God I wasn’t on the phone!!”

“Mam, I saw you…”

Oh and to make the situation even better I was charging my phone at the time so it was right there on the seat.  I did the only thing I could think of which was:

“I swearrrrrrrrrrrrrrr to you I wasn’t on the phone!! I’m sorry but I wasn’t… I SWEAR TO GOD.. I AM NOT LYING TO YOU!”

Clearly, he was not buying it at all.

“Please, look at my calls.. I haven’t had a single call today I don’t think!”

He picks up my phone… looks at my calls, looks at his watch…

“Well, either your smart and deleted it somehow or…. you weren’t on your phone.”

“I’m not lying I swear.. I’m a bad liar.”

He let me go.

*     *     *     *     *

As usual, Banana I attracted a real winner at the bar on Saturday night.  The first time he walked by us he started seranading us with whatever dance song was playing and then kept on walking.

Then next time he passed by, he stared at us and showed us his dance moves then continued walking.  Apparently, that was suppose to seduce us?

I think he was getting braver as the night went on.  The next time, he came up between us and slung an arm around each of our shoulders.. “helloo ladies” in a slurred voice.  Immediately I shoot a look to Banana that says why is this creeper touching us.  Unfortunately or well maybe fortunately, he noticed.  “Oh, excuseeeeeeeeeeee meeeeeee.. do you not want to talk to me? Whatever.”  and he walked away.  I would feel bad except I don’t like having my personal space invaded like that.

Hi, this is my life.


Filed under Boys are Dumb, I love my friends, single life, This is my life

Updatey Doodle

This week seemed to fly by.  Work has been crazy – it’s year end so the days are busy and a little stressful but it makes it go by fast.  However, this also means that my Google Reader is pretty out of control because of my lack of blogging time at work these days.  Also, my laptop at home has decided to stop connecting to the network so I can’t lay in bed and blog like usual either.  But I still heart all of you I’m just a little behind on my reading/commenting.  I’ll be visiting my friend this weekend so unfortunately the neglect will continue for a couple more days.  Forgive me. 🙂

So some interesting things that have occured this week?  Well, for starters, Cubie got stopped as we were walking out of Panera and asked if she would be interested in auditioning for a part in a movie.  Now, Cubie does not give any guy the time of day and so at first I think we both thought he was just trying to ask her out.  But she seemed interested (in the movie) which actually kind of surprised me. 

He explained the plot of the movie and said he was going to Africa for a few months but they would be starting on the film when he got back.  To me, it sounded like a crock of shit especially when she asked him if he had a card and he didn’t.  He gave his e-mail address and told her to e-mail him if she was interested.  So we leave and discuss the fact that he must be Googled the second we get back to our desks.  Then it dawns on me….

“Cubie, can you even act?” I asked, laughing. 

“Well, I can make myself cry but I don’t know if I’d call myself an actress.” 

“Well, do you have some hidden acting aspirations I don’t know about?” 

“No, but I have some serious modeling aspirations so I’ll take what I can get.”

We get back to work to find out that this guy is COMPLETELY legit.  I was floored.  He has an IMDB page with pics so we knew it was him and all these big movies and shows he’s worked on in the last couple years.  Pretty cool stuff!  So she e-mailed him at the end of the day and said she’d be interested in auditioning.  I thought about it afterwards and how I could never see that happening to me.  Then I realized that I don’t like being the center of attention so it doesn’t even matter, heh.

Let’s see, I’ve been talking to two guys from POF.  The first one we shall call, Surfer.  We talked a couple nights in a row on AIM for a couple hours each night and we seemed to get along well and have the same sense of humor.  Then, he asked if the next night (Wednesday) he could call me.  Err, crap, I knowww I should talk to these guys on the phone to see if we really can hold a conversation but I am soooo not a phone person.  But I gave him my number anyways and proceeded to be nervous about having to talk to a stranger all day on Wed.   Finally he calls and I contemplated not answering but then I realized that was stupid and we ended up spending two hours talking.  So it was good =).  He also taught himself to juggle… plus when he was younger he named his cat my name so maybe it’s a sign – haha, jk. 

The other guy, DK also just called me a little bit ago but he was about to drive home so he is suppose to call me when he gets back home.  We only talked for a few minutes but something about him put me at ease.  I like that. =)  Plus, he is a tennis player and I pretty much have a weakness for them. 

Anyways, we shall see.. it’s pretty fun just to have a couple of guys to talk to.  It’s exciting even if nothing comes of it.

Stay tuned… 😉


Filed under About Blogging, Cubicle Life, Dating Stories, single life

Thank the Baby Jesus It’s Friday!

I am over the moon excited that it is Friday.. this week at work has been craptastic – so stressful and frustrating. Plus, how dare they keep me so busy I can’t read and comment on my favorite blogs. 😉 But the fact that it was such a crazy week really makes it that much sweeter that it’s finally Friday.

B T W right now at 11:02am, I have a strong craving for a good ole make out sesh. Just thought I’d throw that out there.

Yea, it’s gonna be a fun post, I’m all over the place because I’m giddy. I’m giddy about spending the weekend with my amazing best friends. And I think that’s pretty fabulous. Because a week ago I was in a funk and down about being single and today I am still single and perfectly fine with it. Perspective is everything.

So I have a lot to say about online dating… AND I haven’t even actually gone on a date from it yet! Ha. But I have a story to share and a lesson learned…

Right now, I’m on Plenty of Fish – it’s a free one and I like it so far. Anyways, I get an IM and I’m talking to the guy and he’s nice and the conversation is good. At the end of the convo he asks for my number – he’d like to talk on the phone. I’m not a phone person, I wasn’t sure how interested in him I was and I felt a little pressured into giving it to him. But he did seem nice so I gave it to him.

Hello, mistake.

So then, he asks me to add him on Myspace.. already, I felt like the phone number was too much – now Myspace too. Geez, calm down. So, before I even get to add him, he goes:

“Made it simple for you.. you have a friend request waiting..”

“Oh wow… um, how did you find me?” AKA thank you for freaking me out.

I swear you guys, I have friends who can’t even find me on Myspace so uh, yea it freaked me out. I mean my name is fairly common and my town is BIG! So about that moment, I was wishing I could somehow take back the fact I gave him my number.

So later that night, he messages me that he’s sorry if he came on too strong and all this. Then he messages me on MySpace to check the message on POF. I denied his friend request – yea, kinda bitchy I know. So he tries to add me again with another message. Then yesterday he texts me. A little later calls. Then a little later calls and leaves a v-mail. Well, shit. I think I’m going to write back to his POF message later so he stops stalking me out calling. I don’t really know what to say though, which is why I ignored him in the first place.

Anyways, lesson learned right? Definitely will not be giving out my number to any guys unless I’m very interested and I’m pretty confident they will not turn into the stalkerazzi.

But, much more on online dating to come next week. And on the positive side, there are two prospects I’ve been e-mailing with that I like so far. 🙂

On the agenda for this weekend is dinner with one of the bestie’s tonight. Then Bestest is having a pocketbook party tomorrow and afterwards, going out with all my friends. Oh and getting my hair did tomorrow – I won’t tell you how long it’s been since I cut my hair – I’m embarassed.

Happy Friday party people – have a fabulous weekend!


Filed under Blonde moments, Cubicle Life, Dating Stories, Random Thoughts, single life, This is my life