You feelin Lucky?

¬†Happy St. Patty’s Day, you guys! ūüôā

I’ve¬†had¬†that saying – “luck of the Irish” stuck in my head all day.¬†¬†Perhaps because I might hear back from the school I interviewed with last week and I’m hoping maybe I’ll have some of that Irish luck on my side today!¬† Hey, I’ll take whatever help I can get. ūüėČ

Anyway, this saying got me thinking about what ways I’ve been lucky lately.

Regardless of what happens with the grad program I am waiting to hear back from, I feel lucky to finally have found a career path that I want to pursue and feel passionate about.¬† Being at the interview days last week really got me so excited and calmed some of my nerves about whether I was making the right decision.¬† I felt sparks – like yes, this is the right career for me, how could I have not realized this sooner!¬† I’ve NEVER felt that before.¬† That was always my problem, I was always waiting to find that one career that really, truly called to me.¬† So I feel very lucky to have realized this path I’d like to go down.

For many years, I thought I was cursed with bad luck in love (this is truly not an exaggeration – 100% thought I was CURSED!).¬† Well, right now I feel pretty lucky in love and I can only hope it stays that way.¬† Maybe it’s the Irish in both of us combined to bring us some good luck – who knows!

I’m lucky in friendships.¬† As I get older, I realize that not everyone gets to see there friends as often as I do.¬† Maybe thats partly because we haven’t totally entered the marriage and baby phase.¬† Or maybe because not many of us have moved away yet.¬† But right now, I feel lucky to have a bunch of close friends that are an amazing support system (and also ones awesome enough to partake in weekly LOST parties every Tuesday night!)

I’m lucky in family and health and happiness.

I guess too often we focus on the unlucky things.¬† Today, I encourage you to reflect on your good luck.¬† It might just make you feel warm and fuzzy. ūüôā

Wishing you lots o’ love & luck today!

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Just Breathe…

Sometimes, I have to remind myself of this simple fact.  Sometimes, I let the little stresses of life consume me.  I feel my chest get tight and realize I am in fact barely breathing. 

I had the interview days at one of my top choices for grad school on Thursday and Friday of last week.¬† It went pretty well, I think.¬† I’m not the best at interviewing but I don’t think I completely bombed it.¬† I know I should feel relieved that the hard part is over.¬† And I do.¬† However, I also can’t kick the anxiety of analyzing everything I said and didn’t say during my SEVEN interviews over two days.¬†¬† I should find out by the end of the week if I will be offered an internship/formal invitation to join the program so on the up side, at least I don’t have to torture myself for too much longer.

However, it has been frustrating me that I have been having such a hard time unwinding from the stress of the interview days.¬† I should feel satisfied that I accomplished what I set out to do – which was to try my very best.¬† I did that, and to be honest, I even surprised myself a little.¬† After the first interview, my nerves calmed down and the rest of the day seemed so much easier.¬† I guess the reason I feel like I’m bad at interviewing is that I get myself too worked up and then I can’t think straight.

Anyways, I guess I just felt like I couldn’t shut my mind off, even during my relaxing weekend.¬† All I could think about were the two days of interviews and learning about the program.¬† Obsessing.¬† I was definitely obsessing – and I wasn’t happy about it.¬† I just can’t seem to¬†fully kick that annoying hint of anxiety and nervousness.¬†

I just keep trying to remind myself that it’s out of my hands.¬† I’ve done my part, I tried my hardest and now all I can do is hope for the best.¬† If I’m meant to go to this school it will work out.¬† If I don’t get in, it will be okay too.¬† And I just need to find peace in the fact that I went for it and did the best I could.

Inhale.  Exhale.

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On some bloggy things…

It’s Friday, ya’ll – FRIDAY!¬† Let the happy dance commence. ūüôā

My little love list on Wednesday never posted to Google Reader – what is that about?¬† G Reader, you got some beef with me?¬† I can take ya… I can – you better watch your back!

I’ve been wanting to change the title of my blog for awhile now… Little Miss Obsessive while it is true, I can obsess about things¬†– I find it a little bit negative.¬† Also I have run across too many other Little Miss Obsessive’s and the unoriginality makes me sad.¬† So if one day you pop on over and I’ve completely changed the name and blog title, don’t be surprised.¬† BUT I’m still mulling it over so we will see.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my little bloggy here and my brand – or well, lack thereof.¬† I’ve been thinking about what kind of blog I want this to be – you know, what my shtick is?¬† I’ve been hearing a lot about branding yourself and of course it does make a lot of sense to me.¬†¬†Blogs are more popular, it seems, when you can clearly define what you are all about and who your audience is.¬† But, the thing I’ve realized is that maybe “my thing” is¬†just being¬†me.¬† 100% me.¬† And maybe that is not the clearest, most defined direction for a blog but that’s what I want this space to be.¬†

I talk a lot about dating and relationships but would I call myself a relationship blog?¬† Not really.¬† I talk about other things like TV, fashion, my goals and dreams.¬† Some days I’m in the mood to be really positive but do I want to be an inspirational positive blog…. well, no because some days I want to just be honest.¬† And tell you that I’m sad or whine just a little.¬† I don’t want to have constraints.

I guess the thing I’ve come to realize is that I just want this space to be a reflection of all that I am.¬† I can’t only write positive because I don’t always feel positive.¬† I like to write about dating and relationships but I don’t want to only write about that.¬† So, I guess my general conclusion is that my only direction in this blog is being me.¬† Plain and simple.¬† And if you like reading about litle ole me, then thank you. ūüôā

Do you brand yourself as a certain type of blog or blogger?  If so, do you feel like it constrains what you write about?

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A Love List

After not writing for awhile, it’s always hard to come back. I haven’t written for so long that I don’t even know where to begin. So I decided I’ll just ease my way into things with a little love list because really? Who doesn’t like love lists? They make me happy.

Evan Lysacek – Omg, people I just love him!¬† I love his skating style, he’s freaking adorable and on Monday night my life got a little bit sweeter when I found out he’s going to be on Dancing with the Stars – my bet is he will be great!

My FAVORITE lotion OF ALL TIME is back!! I am not even exagerating when I say that this was the best news I got all last week lol. Bath & Body Works discontinued this magical stuff awhile ago and I tried to find some online but people who had a supply jacked the price up from $12 to $40 (b/c they KNEW how amazing it was and how stupid B&BW was to get rid of it!) You better believe I’ll be stocking up on these bad boys so that I have a nice supply before they discontinue it again!

The Office – The baby episode is on tomorrow night.¬† I’m so excited – there’s a 99.8% chance I will cry, lol. I’ve become quite emotional at things such as weddings and babies these days.¬† Kendra’s Baby Ep – bawled like a baby.

Speaking of The Office, this is My Lovey’s “Jim Face” hehe. Everytime I look at this pic, I fall a little more in love with him. It’s like we’re constantly in a contest of who can act goofier… and I wouldn’t have it any other way. One more shmoopy thought, I love that Uncle Kracker song, “Smile” and it ALWAYS makes me think of My Lovey and so that fact that they are using it on The Office commercials makes me soooo happy. The Office is our show. AND I said I wanted to find my Jim and I did! ūüôā

Okay, I’m sorry… the shmoop is over I promise. Something else I’m loving? Four grad applications are totally complete! I’ve already been rejected to one school but it was my reach school so I got over it pretty quickly. Next week on Thurs and Friday are interview days at another school so keep your fingers crossed for me!

Lastly, I turn 25 on Monday! I dunno if I LOVE this per se but I do LOVE my weekend plans. I’m celebrating my birthday with my friends on Saturday night, then Sunday I am going to Atlantic City with Lovey to celebrate my bday & our 6 month anni and then we have Monday off together (which is my actual bday). Oh and also, College Roomie is coming to visit Fri-Sunday so I’m really pumped about that as well!

What are YOU loving these days? And p.s. I missed you!

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Some 2 0 1 0 Resolutions.

Two thousand and ten (well, at least that’s how I say it)¬†It has a nice ring to it, don’t you think? ūüôā¬† A brand spankin new year, filled with promise.¬† I don’t know exactly what this year has in store for me but all I can do is hope for good things, no, actually I hope for really awesome things.¬† As I said in my last post, I feel like 2009 was a really great year for me, filled with personal growth and I think the goals/resolutions I have for myself this year will help keep the momentum going.¬† Oh, the possibilities, I am excited.

Find outlets for my creativity – Ever since my girl scout days, I have always loved crafting and using my creativity so this is a big goal for me this year.¬† I feel like I have all this creative energy pent up and not enough outlets to let it out.¬† First, I’d really ¬†like to learn to crochet/knit.¬† There is a store right near my boyfriend’s house that offers classes so I’m going to look into those (so excited!).¬† I also want to continue to learn more about jewelry making, which I started this year.¬† And finally, I’ve been really wanting a DSLR camera for awhile now and I’m thinking of putting my Christmas money towards one.¬† I loved the photography class I took my senior year of college and I feel like I would use my camera SO MUCH MORE if it was digital.¬† If anyone has any suggestions for a good starter DSLR, feel free to let me know. ūüôā¬† I’m really excited at all the possibilities to create and maybe next year I will be ready to open my own Etsy shop!

Get in shape/lose weight – This was a resolution last year and pretty much the only one that I 100% failed.¬†¬†I’m still not off to a good start this year either.¬† What’s it going to take?¬† I need to get a grip because the last two and a half years have been a steady increase in weight and a steady decrease in the amount of excercise I get.¬† I sit all day long at my job; I¬†need to get up and get active.¬† The hardest part is starting – I just need to find my motivation – where, oh where, are you hiding mister motivation!?¬† I put “get in shape” before “lose weight” because that truly comes first this year.¬† It’s not all about how I look anymore (although I’m not so happy about that either).¬† It’s just I feel very out of shape and I don’t like it.¬† Once it gets a little nicer out I’d really like to start running (Couch to 5K program).¬† I have always struggled with running so it will be a real¬†challenge for me but I think that will actually help.¬† I¬†like to be working TOWARDS something so having a strict plan might just be exactly what I need.¬† So, running at least one 5k is a big resolution for me this year and I really hope I follow through.

Finish applying to¬†grad school¬†– Ok, plain and simple – the process is annoying.¬† Seriously, every school wants something different from you.¬† I feel like I’m on a scavenger hunt to just decode exactly what the program requirements are.¬† Sometimes, I just want to say ughhhh, fuck it.¬† But I just need to buckle down and finish the rest of these applications.¬† The most annoying part is getting the recommendations.¬† I hate having to ask the recommenders over and over to submit their letters BUT I just need to do what needs to be done and stop putting things off.¬† One school down, five to go!

Be happy & appreciative for everything I have – I really would like to start a gratitude journal and list a few things every day or every few days that I’m thankful for.¬† I feel like it would really help put things in a positive perspective for me.¬† I already make an active attempt to be grateful for everything in my life but I think writing it all down would just take it to a new level. ūüôā

What are your resolutions?

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Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand Six Hundred Minutes

For me, 2009 was a year of self reflection, taking chances, opening myself up and letting go.

It¬†turned out to be a¬†pretty big year, but in a quiet way, maybe that’s why I didn’t realize it while I was going through it.¬† Nothing huge and dramatic really happened but somehow through new friends, a lot of self reflection and decisions, things are changing – I’m changing, life is changing, and it’s exciting and scary at the same time.¬† But don’t you think that is when the best things happen?¬† That exciting and scary feeling?¬† I think it’s a good sign.

I started off the year at¬†a hotel party with a group of my best friends dancing my little heart out. ¬†I didn’t have anyone to kiss at midnight but I was¬†really okay with that. ¬†Actually, I was more than okay with it because the year before I had The Ex to kiss at midnight and THAT night went on to be my worst NYE thus far in life (thanks to a giant fight w/ him, the jerkface!). ¬†So I learned, having someone to kiss at midnight does not a great New Years Eve make. ¬† But back to last year’s New Year’s Eve, right after the ball dropped “Walking on Sunshine” came on, which just so happens to be my theme song at work. ¬†I couldn’t help but think¬†that it¬†might be a sign from The Universe that this year might just be awesome.

And looking back? ¬†Well, it kind of was. ¬†Of course, there was hard stuff…. there’s ALWAYS going to be hard stuff. ¬†But there was lots & lots of really good stuff too and that’s really the stuff I remember the most.¬† I went on two awesome vacations with my best friends and had countless fun nights out.¬† I tried snowboarding for the first time and finally took some jewelry making classes!¬† But this year was less about¬†what¬†I did¬†and more about what I learned.

The beginning of this year was filled with some…. interesting dating experiences, to say the least (you know, like the guy who whipped it out, Work Spouse, Meantime Man & of course, the last of The Ex) and as awkward/upsetting/ UN-FREAKIN-BELIEVABLE as¬†some of those experiences were, I still wouldn’t take them back.¬† Because I learned from each bad date, from each disappointment, from each dating disaster and I filed away new information about what I do and DON’T want out of a relationship and a boyfriend.¬† Plus, let’s¬†be honest –¬†it made for some¬†good blog fodder. ūüėČ

But something that defined this year the most for me happened in the summer.¬†¬†I reconnected with an old¬†friend from high school, who I spent hours and hours getting to know again through conversations online. ¬†He’s a deep, intellectual and introspective person and somehow through our conversations, I got to thinking a lot about my own life, my own thoughts and opinions, dreams and goals. ¬†I started questioning things and ideas and beliefs I had my whole life and began to wonder if I’d¬†been going¬†through life with too many of my Mom’s opinions shaping the way I was living. ¬†So, I vowed to make changes and to live life on my own terms.¬†¬†I realized that if I kept living my life through my Mom’s eyes I would never be happy. ¬†So, I made a big decision to apply to grad schools and to take a RISK! ¬†Something I really feel like I haven’t done enough of in my life, mostly because my Mom tends to stress taking the safe route.¬† But I’m going after what I want and need to do right now.¬† I’m going after a new career path, one I feel¬†passionate about and I’m giving it a try.¬† It is a risk – I know this but one that I feel is worth taking.

And then amidst all this decision making, self reflecting, growing and embracing who I am, something even more amazing happened.¬† I found myself talking to this sweet boy on OK Cupid and¬†although I was pretty over the whole¬†online dating thing, I felt like I should meet up with him. ¬†At this point, my expectations were low and dating had really taken a back burner to the bigger ideas I had swirling around my head.¬†¬†But it turned out to be one of the best decisions I¬†ever made because four months later, I sometimes forget what my life was like without him.¬†¬†And I don’t mean that in¬†a bad, my relationship is my whole life kind of¬†way… more like, he fits into my world so perfectly and¬†he fills in these little gaps I didn’t even know existed and just makes my life that much sweeter. ¬†He is not my everything or my only happiness¬†BUT¬†he is who I get to share my life, my happiness WITH – which is what I think I’ve been looking for all along.

I have a feeling that I will always look back on 2009 very fondly.  Something about the little moments, the little revelations, the little ideas, that ended up having a big impact on me. 

Love & best wishes to you all in 2010.

xoxo

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Because I Still Heart Being Random on Friday’s

It’s Friday, party people!!¬† Woot Woot.¬† ūüôā

After yesterday did a wonderful job of kicking my ass, I am kicking today’s ass.¬† Or well, maybe The Universe just loves me today.¬† Actually, it’s a fact – it told me in my note this morning:

Did you know, LMO, that every time you cry there, harps go quiet here, angels stop dancing, and the stars look down in stunned silence?¬† Which is why we often say, “If¬†LMO ain’t happy, ain’t no one happy.”
You are loved,
    The Universe

See, Universe = lots of love today.  Does the universe send you a love note every morning?  No?  Well then go here and get to it: http://www.tut.com/resources/notes/

I really can’t believe Christmas is only TWO WEEKS away.¬† Can you guess who’s done pretty much NO shopping?¬† Who’s that you guessed?¬† Did you say LMO?¬† Well then yes, you are correct you smart little cookie, you.¬† I was off to a terrible start too, as I’m getting my boyfriend a customized Dolphins jersey and I put off ordering it until a couple weeks ago because um, I don’t know, the website never SAID it was on BACKORDER!!!¬† So anyways, I ordered it only to learn that it will probably take 2-4 weeks to ship and once it does, it goes out UPS ground and takes another¬†3-6 days to be delivered.¬† So I crunched the numbers and proceeded to freak out because, oh shit! it very well might not be here for Christmas!¬† Tear tear.

Well, wouldn’t you know I checked my e-mail this morning only to discover it shipped out today.¬† Cue happy happy dance! ūüôā

I’m really looking forward to this weekend – I have nice mix of relaxation, productivity and fun planned. ¬† Tonight Boyfriend & I are going to go looking for some ugly sweaters for our party we have next weekend.¬† Do you guys have any tips on where we should look!?¬† Then tomorrow is all about Christmas shopping and relaxing once I’m done.

Then on Sunday, I’m going up to NY to go to my aunt’s baby shower.¬† I can’t believe we are going to have a little baby in the family – it has been a long time! like 13 yrs!¬† So happy for her and can’t wait to meet the little guy or girl in February. ūüôā

I bet it will be¬†another boy.¬† When I was younger, I always¬†wanted a little girl cousin to play with, teach her how to do curl her hair and let her play with my makeup.¬† I am the oldest cousin on my Dad’s side of the family, then comes my sis who is two years younger then my one girl cousin who is two years younger than my sis.¬† But she was the biggest brat when she was younger so she did not fulfill my hope for a little girl cousin!¬† So after her, I have FIVE BOY COUSINS.¬† Every time one of my Aunt’s would get pregnant, I would pray for a girl, please a girl!¬† And every time, it was a boy.¬† I wonder if now, I’ll finally get my little girl cousin, lol.¬† That would be cute. ūüôā

Have a great weekend lovlies!

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